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just got back kind of from break. eh.
moving when school gets out in a month and two weeks or so.
things tend to normally work out if you give it time. i don't really know why.

i don't know what to do.

people and things;

(for pictures, right click → open in new tab);

(life isn't necessarily complete, but it's getting there).

the story to this is that someone was locked out of a room sitting in front of a door at 6am. their friend said they'd come, but didn't until they realized the situation much, much later. they were truly way too fucked up. they've never been more thirsty their life. they've never needed someone by them like that before, or depended on someone for so much before. it was real bad. "the walls seriously felt like they were caving in." so many thoughts running through their head. they didn't want to leave to go to where they normally sleep because they feared that they would get lost. they sent these texts along with multiple calls in an hour.

can't come?
each day i'd spend it with you open the door?
all my time i'd spend it with you it'd be best if you can.
now each day i spend it with me really please. i'm sorry. just tired.
i really don't want to do sleep outside the door. please? i'll pay you
all my time i spend it with me please? i'm sorry to bother you
out here no one can hear me. i'm freaking out. i really am.
out here no one can hear me. where are you? i need you
please? i've never sent this many texts before to someone at once.
seconds seem like hours. i'm sorry.
my phone is about to die. i'm not lying
i really need you now.
why would you do this to me? i trusted you
are you asleep?
i've never done anything mean to you
i'm not trying to be angry or stupid.
can't you call me?
god i sound like a fucking dad i'm sorry.
please?
where are you i'll come to you
you're fucking with my mind

spring break was awesome.
got to see and be with people who are the few people who can actually make me happy; got to see boys noize twice and talk to shadow dancer; drank with the gza from wu tang and the black lips; got in 21+ clubs, and much more.
i can't think of anything else to say right now...
maybe i'll add more stuff later.

edit; yeah.

boys noize playing three songs. he had to make this part quick because the people at the venue said he went over his time. kept going up to him while he was playing. was lame.